Monday, January 31, 2011

Weekend remnants

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Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Luck's a changing

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I entered an online contest the other week and won tickets to a concert of my choosing. Yay. Not a mega concert, something small and Canadian but I'm pretty pumped. I don't usually win things, or I should say I didn't usually win things, but perhaps my luck is on an upswing! Lotto ticket this week just in case



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Monday, January 24, 2011

8 things....

Taking inspiration from cococricketsmama I thought I would post an 8 things and tag Beevs30 to do one as well!
1. I put mangos in my guacamole
2. I just recently started wearing contacts and its changed my LIFE
3. This past year I just found out I'm allergic to crab (very distressing as I adore seafood of all kinds)
4. My socks still rarely match and that's due to my lack of care when doing laundry/lack of attention when putting away laundry
5. I am somewhat addicted to my blackberry. I have no real reason to be so 2011 is the year I'm trying to not check it some obsessively
6. I read a lot of mommy blogs.... And hope to one day have one of my own
7. Not having a book on the go makes me crazy (like right now, I missed the express bus and taking a 30 min bus ride with no book= I may be blogging for next 25mins)
8. I talk to my mum at least once a day




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Friday, January 21, 2011

Week in recap

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Eating has been going really well-today I didn't bring my lunch though(so that's minus one point)and I haven't actually worked out in a while.... Like 2 weeks a while-minus 15 points. But I'm going to my friends gym tomorrow and am going to cardio my ass off! And we are going to a wedding tomorrow night so that will have some dancing calorie burning as well. Nothing exciting to report!



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Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Resolution check in

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Ok haven't been working out as much as I was the other week, but we are doing a work out video tonight! And a friend and I are starting hot yoga next week which seems to have crazy weight loss/health points. So that could be good. I've brown bagged every day for lunch as of late and have been bringing breakfast too! I haven't been to Tim Hortons/Starbucks in ages-making coffee in the morning at home or else drinking it at work. We have also made dinner at home nearly every night which is great. So.... Food and money saving is intertwined working well there. I haven't shopped yet and I've been trying to figure out ways to make some extra cash. Haven't come up with anything phenomenal yet though!




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Monday, January 17, 2011

It comes in the night

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It has been a year and 7 months since my Dad passed away; and generally I feel like I am ok and have healed from the loss. Its a long and complicated story about my relationship with him, but we hadn't really been in touch often for years before he died. Before this happened I would imagine what it would be like when he died, how I probably wouldn't really be affected. I figured I would feel bad that he never got his life back together, but I never imagined the gaping hole his permanent absence would leave in my life. For a while I cried every day, felt wracked with guilt and remorse that we hadn't managed to reform some semblance of a relationship. That I had never been able to make peace with him.
Nowadays I feel pretty fine. I tend to get choked up when we watch movies or TV shows involving parental death. Once upon a time I used to feel sad in those instances, but now that I know the raw emotion that comes along with it I just cry. And realize that yes I am crying along with a character mourning a fictional death, but the feeling just feels so real.
I think that it is these sorts of situations that trigger my subconsciousness, causing me to have similar dreams each time. Watching Marshall's dad die on How I Met Your Mother last night reduced me to tears. And then.... Queue the dream:
It is always some variation of the same, my Dad and family and I are at our old cottage (we had to sell it in 1996) and we are talking about selling it but somehow we figure out the money just in time and we don't have to (yay) and my Dad is there and we have an amazing visit, and usually in my dreams I know he is dead, but that we have this one special time together. And then I wake up and sleep tears have soaked my pillow. I had that dream last night-G woke me up cause I was crying in my sleep and tried to snuggle the sad feelings away. But I lay awake and instead thought of what could have been.







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Friday, January 14, 2011

Soooooo

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Got a phone call tonight and G and I were approved for a mortgage! I can't stop smiling and I guess this makes things a little more real-and now we can move forward and make some plans.





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Wednesday, January 12, 2011

No news is good news?

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Meeting yesterday was very informative and the lady we met with was really nice. We don't know if we qualify for a mortgage yet, she said it will take her a few days to get through our application. She did sound positive and said that if we aren't eligible now, she will do what she can to help us get on track. I always tend to get anxious when talking to people about money, or more so about my lack of money. I have student debt like most of my friends, but I also got really screwed for money in my previous relationship (which was completely my own blind dumb fault) Then I went back to school for MORE debt. Woo. And up until lately I sucked at saving and being organized enough to have dinners and lunches prepared ahead of time. I really do feel motivated now to stay on track-but I need more help from G. Yesterday he didn't eat his packed lunch and went for sushi instead. Yes it was only $6 lunch special, but that stuff is what starts adding up! Is it common for men to not really get it? Like why should I be worrying about food and making us breakfast and lunch if you're just going to go eat whatever. If we want to do joint finances then we really do need to be thinking about our money when we do this! Yeesh. Then I got all ticked off and had a shower and I guess it showed as he made us tuna wraps for lunch-yay.

I emailed the people I used to babysit for in the hopes that they can start using me again. That sort of work ebbs and flows though, but the pay is good and their kid is fun to hang out with so it makes for a good nights work! G and I are trying to keep up with some side jobs for extra money as well. I think that 2011 we need to just focus on cutting out random outgoing cash and work on channelling some coming in!




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Tuesday, January 11, 2011

More about resolutions I guess...

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I tend to relish the start of January-a new year of fresh promise laid out before me like untouched snow on a field. And I tend to rock out hard with my resolutions, determined to make myself a more motivated, fit organized person. But then comes end of January and I'm tired and lazy and suddenly all those good intentions fly out the window. So I was debating not blogging about it, but hell I like a pat on the back so why not?
Useless spending : G and I have managed to brown bag every day but one over the past 2 weeks. I've been getting up early and making us coffee and a bagel to stop the early morning Timmies run(we added up a month of what we were spending there, cried and then decided NO MORE!!) we've been working together to plan meals and stop ordering pizza and what have you. I've been slowly working though whatever food was randomly crammed in our freezer so we can start over knowing what's in there and what we should make each night. (this will seem huge if we can keep doing it)
Fitness: this I say every freaking year! I want to be fit and feel better about my nolongerateenagebody. I have literally gained 25lbs in the past 3 years. Luckily most of it has gone to my chest (hahaha) but a lot has gone to my mid section and I don't want to start off yet another decade in my life wishing I was thin(er) or "FIT" as my mum keeps emphatically staying whenever I say thin. I am no longer in school so I have more free time and I want to use said time to go to the gym, go for walks, crosscountry ski, snowshoe...anything that gets me moving. I have been drinking a ton of water every day and trying to eat less. I am starting to not feel hungry all the time which is a start! And I've been trying to keep making smart food choices to keep me feeling good about myself. I also feel that this will help with another issue I have-the mystery food allergy. It seems to be a fat or something as I feel sick when I eat highly processed foods....so yet another motivator to keep this up.
Getting my life in order: This one definitely involves me being less lazy....so perhaps all the energy I am going to get from working out might help!! I want to open bills as they come in, not to avoid checking credit card balances and the like. To stay on top of things, to keep my apartment tidy and to maintain a calendar so G and I know what's going on week to week. I am hoping this is something we can do together, but I feel like he needs a push in the right direction-or sometimes more like a shove.


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Sunday, January 9, 2011

Can't sleep

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We went to bed early and G is snoring away and I gave up-figured I would blog cause now its 11 and I don't know who is up to keep me company via text or bbm!
Had a good weekend, as usal not as productive as I would have liked, but we went to a wedding, saw a few different friends and finally got around to moving our room around.... Only been talking about it since August. This week should be busy. My boss is back from holiday so that will help with getting things going at work....and on Tuesday G and I are meeting with a lender about a mortgage. So Tuesday will either be an exciting day or one of those dumpy days when you realize that perhaps your dreams are another year or two away. (actually am trying to feel positive about the whole thing. Somehow someway I know life is going to work out for us, but typically it seems not to work how how I 'plan' it) Still feels weird that I'm not in school....I feel like I am getting behind as I haven't been doing homework, and then I realize there is no homework to do. I want to focus on cleaning and organizing the next few nights, there is a TON of stuff I can throw out or give away now that I'm not making models or needing mega rolls of trace paper anymore!





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Thursday, January 6, 2011

Holiday recap and the new year!

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Time off was amazing. Spent tons of time with G and family-felt refreshed and renewed. Somehow school now seems like it was years ago! Everything was pretty low key, but honestly that's the way I like it. We had 4 Christmas, 2 near home, 1 in Barrie and 1 in North Bay. Things really do get crazy when it comes to blended families. This was the first year that things with G and I started to feel like traditions. Our first Christmas together we had only been casually dating for a month so nothing love fest there, but the past 3 years now have started to bring some tradition and familiarity with them. After all the christmases we managed to be pretty low key catching up with a few friends and I got to spend some time with my mum.

New years eve was delightfully low key as well and the few days since have been making me feel inspired and positive that perhaps this will be the year I'm hoping to make it. 2011 is still a bright shiny penny, please don't get tarnished by my cynicism and frustrations too soon!!!!





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Sunday, January 2, 2011

2011 so far

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We ushered out 2010 with minimal pomp and circumstance. Hung out with another couple, ate raclette and played Xbox Kinect (I think that's what its called) Watched the last 5 mins before the ball dropped and drank crazy sweet uber cheap champagne-like the kind I probably bought to ring in the millennium, I was just as broke then and still felt a sparkling bevie was crucial at midnight.
So far, all 2 days of it have been good. I have one more day off tomorrow and then its back to real life. No longer student life, but grown up working 5 days a week life. Both exciting and scary!
Huge changes will probably be coming up.... Stay tuned!



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