I got an email from my lawyer yesterday...and my divorce, 3 years in the making has finally come through. I was at school and was chatting about it with my friends when another classmate said "I've never heard anyone celebrating a divorce before". That can't possibly be true right? I am sure people have escaped far worse marriages than mine and had cause for celebration!
It really got me thinking though, and that's always good! I think its a bit callous sounding to delight in the complete removal of a person from ones life, but he wasn't a good person, and its best that he is gone. I feel strange today, somehow almost lighter. This has been a weight dragging me down for sometime now, and knowing that this break is final, that he no longer has any power over me feels fantastic.
I do however feel that thanks to this experience my view of relationships and marriage as a whole have changed. Not in a bad way, but just different. Before I think I was so focused on the wedding aspect I think I didn't really contemplate what came after. Forever. That's a looong time. With my ex, I was in a position where things happened extremely fast, and we definitely didn't have time to get to know each other enough first. (obviously as we made the wrong decision) But things with G are different. I want to spend the rest of my life with him, having him tease me about my clumsyness and me rolling my eyes at his inability to be on time. I know enough of him and love all of it, and I look forward to uncovering the parts of him that I don't yet know. I think we will remain in this stage together for a while now, living together and making sure we are really right for each other before we move forward. But I am definitely ready and excited for the next stage in our lives.
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