Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Dreams can be motivating


Last night I had a really weird dream. I was hanging out with my ex-father in law and ex brother in law.  When Steven (ex pops in law) was left by his wife, he never really recovered. He got depressed and his house turned into a disgusting mess.  There was an accumulation of newspapers, garbage, mail, recycling that was approximately 8 years old. I think that at some point he just gave up life but kept living.  It was really sad.  However in my dream last night I was randomly visiting them and his house was spotless.  I noticed a ring on his finger and then a woman came in.  He had remarried and was happy. He had moved on and it was so great to see. Even though we aren't in touch anymore, it still made me smile to see how he had turned things around.  Then I awoke and realized with 98% certainty that that was not the case. He has pretty much dedicated his life to taking care of my ex (who has issues and pretty much needs a crazy amount of attention). It was strange, but when I woke up I felt like I had to get moving, to clean up my apartment, not to waste the day away in bed.  I just want to keep moving forward so that no matter what my life wont be me, surrounded in the dirty remnants of my past, unable to take another step.

1 comment:

Melissa said...

This gets a thumbs up :)